Life's a Bitch

I have recently developed a dislike for everything optimistic and absolutely annoyed by people that says life is good. Life is certainly no good on my side of the planet. Life at 29, with 2 degrees and unemployed for 12months and recently found out that I have ballooned to 180lbs certainly put me in a depression state. Being too poor to go binge shopping, I settled for toilet scrubbing and could not keep my mind off my depression state. Thousands of things that I wanted to do, what I wanted to be and how am I going to achieve it played in my almost chaotic brain and of course no consensus till its time to make dinner. Routine still rule my life, wake up, lunch (its always lunch), turn on the laptop, check the headline news and make sure that the world is not in the nuclear war, job hunt and shoot out some resume and then its personal time. Usually I browse more internet and read up on stuff that is totally useless but still give me a sense of hope or idea of what I can do to get out of this rut. I guess its not working, going into 12 month long rut.